It's coming up, yes, my 18th birthday.
Though I have a bit of the normal excitement, my 18th birthday will be a bit more nerve racking than a normal one would.
Last year, I was going through so much. Between my family falling apart and almost losing the person I cared for most, I really was not myself. I acted like the someone I swore I'd never be.
In doing so, I got myself into alot of trouble. Yes, with my parents, yes, with my friends...but that's not what I'm talking about.
Unfortunately, I got myself into a situation I could not handle; a co-worker wanted to be a little more than that, but when I didn't, he didn't let go.
The situation resulted in me having to quit my job, not sleeping for weeks at a time, being scared anywhere I'd go, and eventually, having to get a restraining order(RO).
Because I was only 16 at the time I got the RO, it had to be in both mine and my mother's name and would only be temporary, expiring on my 18th birthday.
I've been praying for a while now, about whether or not I should try to get a permanent one. As time has passed, I realize more and more that God really is bigger than any circumstance I may come across. After all, a RO is only a piece of paper and God is so much bigger than written words. He is so much stronger than any police officer and a better shield of protection. He is so much better.
I've finally come to a decision. Though I'm scared and nervous, I've decided to go with the best protection there is; God.
I trust Him more than I trust this world. I believe in Him more than I believe in this world. I know He will rescue me, just like He has time and time again.
If you could please pray for me. For my fears to go away and that this guy would just forget everything that has happened. That he would just give up and never try to do anything again. That he and I could just go on living our seperate lives.
Thanks.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
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