Confused

I'm confused about so many things.

I thought I had my degree all figured out, now I'm not so sure. I'm going to see an advisor, but it's still weighing heavy on my mind.

I miss old friends. It doesn't register in my mind how such good friends could just split. All I know is that I miss them, it still kind of hurts, and I just want things to be how they were.

How do people know who God is or how amazing He is and just ignore Him? They go through life completely aware of His presence and just don't care. They use drugs, alcohol, sex, money, anything that is only of this world to get through life without a single thought about their eternity. There's a song that has these lyrics: "It would be crazy to choose this world over eternity." It is so true. I just don't understand.

Why is forgiveness so difficult? Maybe it's not even the forgiveness part that is hard; maybe it's the forgetting, or putting aside. I keep trying to get past this obstacle and it is so hard to do so.

I'm considering getting a new job. Where? I have a couple ideas. I feel in some ways it's right, and in others that it's not quite time yet.

There has been so much weighing me down lately. I feel like everytime God gives me the strength to get through one thing, something else piles itself on. I don't have the energy to do it alone, I need God so much right now. I need strength. Please keep me in your prayers.